Day Six: Image

This is part of a creative project called 100 Word, 100 Days. In this project I’ll be writing a 100 word piece about my experience as a new mother every day for 100 days. Read more here.

I thought that I had an enlightened relationship with my body until I got pregnant. Then I had numbers to track, and I felt virtuous or ashamed depending on the numbers. The number that ended up mattering was my blood pressure, but my weight was the one I tried and failed not to fixate on.

Now postpartum I’m practicing acceptance with my body. I’m spending my days trying to feed my daughter, resting and recovering from delivery, and slowly pushing our stroller in the brilliant sunshine with my beautiful little family. I still know the numbers. I’m practicing not caring.